Bleckrut is in the eye of the beholder

Here are some things to ponder about the “real” world. Let’s ponder the idea that the reason “science” is having such a hard time discovering where or how consciousness exists in the brain, is because they’ve got it backwards. I propose that “the physical brain” exists within consciousness, not the other way around.

One thing that science has done is estimate that “things”,  including trees and bees and you and me AND the gray cauliflower in our skull,  are AT BEST one BILLIONTH actual “stuff”…. the rest is the space between. By the way it wasn’t so long ago they thought it was one MILLIONTH…

If you haven’t read the previous post called “Little House In The Airy”, now might be a good time to do that. I’ll wait.. I need to get some coffee anyway.

ALLLLL RIGHTY THEN, here we go. So exactly how DO we manage to “thingify” that which is mostly nothing at all? Fact is, we could stare into emptiness all day and perceive nothing at all UNLESS WE KNOW WHAT WE ARE LOOKING FOR.  Kind of hard to swallow that one isn’t it? It’s so OBVIOUS that we’re surrounded by THINGS.  Let’s try an experiment. We are going to recreate on a condensed time scale the process of “discovering” BLACK HOLES.

If you’re old enough to remember, Black Holes began as just a theory put forth by some fuzzy haired German Guy. However, it has only been in the last twenty years or so that we have been able to actually “see” one. Now it turns out that the universe is peppered with them and that they may even exist within our own bodies. So let us begin with a theory/thesis.

The theory is BLECKRUT. Right now it is completely meaningless. We know nothing about it. We could be surrounded by it, doing it, or feeling it right now and we wouldn’t know because we have not established a referent for it. We have been told that it is possible but we don’t know where or even HOW to go about finding it or knowing when and if we do. We have nothing WITHIN OUR EXPERIENCE that has established a REFERENT for it. Our hard drive just whirrs and at best tries to find referents for Bleck and rut, neither of which give us additional information. We need some foothold, some place to start. So let’s add something to it. BLECKRUT is a thing. Still meaningless but we have a direction toward which we can focus our awareness.

BLECKRUT is visible only because of light projecting to your eyes. Watch your mind, be aware of the way you are IGNORING all sorts of thoughts and are now focused on possible answers that emanate light.

BLECKRUT is close to you right now. WHOOOAAA Baby, now there’s an emotional component involved. Now there is an immediate necessity to know what it is. But we CAN NOT PERCEIVE IT “OUT THERE” until we have created it in consciousness, until we have a referent, until it exists on our hard drive.

BLECKRUT usually appears within a rectangular frame. Okay that narrows it down. We can now IGNORE everything but things like walls, windows, boxes, pictures, etc.

The rectangular frame is usually located above a keyboard.

Here comes the AHA… we’re now pretty sure we know what we’re looking for but until we have verification of out theory, it still doesn’t EXIST “OUT THERE”…..

BLECKRUT IS ANY IMAGE THAT APPEARS ON YOUR DEVICE MONITOR.  We just “discovered” our first Bleckrut!!!! It magically exists now where before it was just a word, an idea, a theory. And, just like Black holes, now that we know what we are looking for,  we will see it all over the place.

Consciousness, by its very nature,  makes order out of chaos. It creates structure, function and order out of dynamic waves of frequencies. Consciousness is the creative process of filtering out everything except WHAT WE HAVE PROGRAMMED OURSELVES TO PERCEIVE and then PROJECTING that onto the undifferentiated field as an image appearing substantive.

And finally, here’s your ZEN Koan for the day. “If a tree falls in the forest and there is no one there to hear it, does it make a sound?”

No forest, no tree, no falling, no sound.


Ego Partum Meus Verum

“I create My Truth”

Posted in Truth Not Faith | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Little House in the Airy

Here’s a story about someone you know. Actually it’s more a story of someone you THINK you know. To truly get a feeling for this person’s dilemma. I will ask that you imagine what it was like.

One day you inexplicably find yourself floating within humming, whirring waves of energy; barely distinguishable variations of light and dark. You are a mere point of awareness with no perceivable  “body” because there is no sense of “in here” or “out there”, there is no sense of where”you” begin or end.

Suddenly there is a feeling of vertigo, of being moved from one viewpoint to another and there is now in your awareness  a vague, barely distinguishable, “cloud” of energy that seems to come closer and closer until it seems to surround you and it feels as if it is merging with you and adding a warmth and making the vertigo go away. There’s a sensation of being in a “place” rather than just floating.  There is a feeling of a particular quality of energy coming FROM the cloud and permeating you and somehow creating a border or boundary to your awareness, as if being in this cloud focuses your attention and whatever is outside the cloud doesn’t have as much importance, doesn’t draw your attention.

And then, the vertigo returns and the cloud seems to be moving away and you are once again floating in the endless dynamic flows of light waves and frequencies.

Now, however, you are paying more attention to see if more “clouds” are forming and whether or not they are moving toward you.  Some come closer, some just pass by but now you are actively looking for “clouds” against the undifferentiated background and you see more and more of them. It is a difficult task. Your awareness stretches to infinity and you are trying not to pay attention to anything that doesn’t look like it COULD be a “cloud”, a shape, something with a boundary to it. There is so much that you have to ignore in order to find a cloud. Where do they start and where do they end?

The cloud with which you merged does return, many times. Each time you perceive it, you are able to ignore more and more of the background and see only “your” cloud. You get so good at it that you can even ignore the background you are aware of behind it so that your cloud appears markedly different from the transparent nature of the light waves and frequencies.. you have managed, by learning to focus and ignore/filter out, to make it appear “solid” and not transparent against the background. And the more able you are to make the cloud appear solid, the more “solid” your own sense of yourself becomes.

As time passes you become aware of a different set of wave frequencies emanating from your cloud. They interact with you and vibrate you in a way that is different from being enveloped. It’s like they just send a ripple through you, but a ripple of a very unique kind.  You notice that sometimes you feel the ripple even before you are aware of your cloud itself. Most of the time, when you feel the ripple, your cloud arrives soon afterward. You begin to experiment. Can you MAKE a ripple? Can you intentionally emanate this kind of vibratory ripple? As luck would have it, you manage to make a ripple and to your delight, your cloud comes.

The more you and your cloud are merged, the more you notice that you are absorbing different ways of making the clouds seem solid. It’s as if your cloud is giving you a set of filters that you learn to use to ignore 99% of what is,  so that now there are more and more clouds and they appear UNIQUELY solid. Each one has a very distinct shape based on the filters your cloud has given you. You even become aware that if you wobble in a particular way, you can even see parts of your own personal cloud, your own “solid” body.  You experiment and discover you can make different parts of your personal cloud come at you or go away from your point of awareness. And the big cloud that sometimes holds you  has also given you filters for various kinds of those ripples. The exploration and experimentation continues.

Time passes and through the combination of your new filters and a bunch of trial and error you have learned many things. Perhaps the most radical things you learn are the ones that now make it virtually impossible to see into infinity, to see just the dynamic flow of light waves and frequencies… you have learned to make labels and names and to perceive ONLY that to which you have given a label.

The Big Cloud is now called Mother, the ripples are called sight or sound or taste or touch or smell. And you have learned to give each kind of ripple a different name. This is very attention consuming stuff here. Imagine learning the quality of vibration called “sound” and then learning to get even more specific: Mother sounds become specific words and words have specific meanings and you learn to tell whether a particular word is spoken with kindness or harshness.

The same is true of what you learn is called “seeing”. First you learn “tree”, then “pine tree”, then “California pine tree”, then “Monterrey California Pine tree” and on and on getting more and more specific. It is true with touch, taste and smell also. You learn to only pay attention to these five ways of perceiving  as if you are now locked inside a house with only five tiny windows. Your complete attention is now focused on what can be perceived through these five windows and the endless task of naming it, deciding whether it’s “good” or “bad” and determining a course of action;  fight it, flee from it, allow it to interact with you, use it in some way to your benefit, or ignore it.  And you get further and further away from being able to perceive the truth you were first aware of… that it’s all just a dance of absolutely benign light waves and frequencies with “you” being merely a sense of awareness in the midst of it all.  A simple “I” that learns “AM” and then “THAT”.

This person, as you may have figured out, is you “incarnating”.


Ego Partum Meus Verum

Posted in Truth Not Faith | Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Oh Lord, stuck in my hard drive again

The true defining precept of most world religions is the philosophical debate between the “Destiny, Fate and Divine Will” folks and the “Nobody tells me what to do. I have free will” folks.

Both sides of the debate view the question from the ASSUMPTION that there is in fact a fully conscious and aware”I” that is either reacting or freely acting.

What happens if we consider that “destiny”, that feeling that everything is immutable and predetermined,  is merely the entire content of our unconscious beliefs, assumptions and conditioned responses, our HARD DRIVE, and that “free will” is merely the act of accessing the particular bit of data that seems the most appropriate in any situation? For one thing,  it takes the “forces outside of myself” out of the equation and it questions if random access to the completely programmed Hard Drive is really “Free” will at all.

I propose that Free Will is something we must RECLAIM because, beginning just seconds after our “birth” as a 100% vulnerable and helpless point of awareness, it has been replaced with the mandatory preoccupation of learning how to not die. Our behaviors, opinions, beliefs and reactions are geared toward that end… learn what to do, say, think and believe so we don’t  die.

Reclaiming Free Will means truly investigating what’s on the hard drive, throwing away bits that no longer serve a useful purpose (keeping other people not mad at us so we won’t starve, get cold or get abandoned for instance) keeping things that are still useful (that car is coming right at me, I think I’ll move, for instance) and getting to a place where we can once again RESPOND with childlike awe and curiosity to a universe that is in constant flux and is full of surprises and wonder, instead of REACTING based on all that useless STUFF.

Free will means taking AUTHORSHIP of the content of your unconscious, the context of your assembled reality (your hard drive) and thereby RECLAIMING AUTHORITY over it.


Ego Partum Meus Verum

Posted in Truth Not Faith | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

Vita Es Quietus… ‘nother words, Life is Neutral

It’s interesting though that the Latin word for neutral and quiet are the same. So if life is neutral how come it doesn’t seem so quiet sometimes (or maybe MOST of the time, depending on who’s doing the looking).

So, for example, there you are sitting by the placid pond in the park, with your legs dangling in the nice cool water. The birds are chirping, the wind is gently rustling through the trees and some guy behind you is yelling into his cell phone…oops. Not really feeling the bliss anymore. So wherefore art thou neutral quiet thing? What happened???

You happened. More specifically, your internal system of grading and reacting to the grade you gave happened. In this case, it was mostly what we call sound. Oh, there’s a sound, check the file, decide it’s a bird, give it an A+ and react by smiling and feeling peaceful.  Same thing for that other sound. You search your internal data base and decide it’s “wind in the trees”. From your entire history and the entire box of possible reactions, you give it an A+ = peaceful. Now there’s that “guy behind you is yelling into his cell phone.”…. Checking the AUTOMATIC, CONDITIONED INTERNAL FILING SYSTEM, your CHOICE was to decide it was a BAD sound so he gets a D- and you have a knee jerk, AUTOMATIC, UNCONSCIOUS negative reaction and the “Quietus” goes bye bye.

Here’s the kicker, 9 times out of 10 we will BLAME THE GUY WITH THE CELL PHONE and complain to our friends that “He ruined the quiet.” But did he? He was making a sound that was in and of itself NEUTRAL.

So the question is, who ruined your moment?


Ego Partum Mues Verum

Posted in Truth Not Faith | Tagged , , , , , , | Leave a comment

BUY THE SHIRT (I make $1.50) No more excuses

Go here:

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Betcha didn’t think you already had a MANTRA!!

Whats a Mantra? Google it. It’s a word or phrase that is repeated aloud or silently that focuses our attention and has the power to change the way we perceive ourselves and the world.

In standard usage it is something that is given to you by a spiritual leader, but my guess is that you’ve  already got one or more.  They were given to you by your first teachers; your Mother, Father, Sister,Brother and those pesky “neighbors” whose opinions , we were taught, were SOOOOO important. But most importantly, you ACCEPTED them, and now the repetition has become so automatic that you don’t even realize it’s going on 24-7-365!

I’m guessing you will recognize some of them that are going on within you if I give you examples of common American Mantras. People repeat these constantly and they see their lives becoming “just what the Mantra ordered”.

Here’s some: “Life sucks”, “People are stupid”, “The glass is half empty”, “Nobody loves me”, “Nobody appreciates me”, “My life is full of suffering”, “I have no energy or joy”…..

Once you recognize your Mantras and admit the power they have had to absolutely and completely define the way you perceive your world, you might consider changing them 🙂

Ego Partum Meus Verum

Posted in Truth Not Faith | Tagged , , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment